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Saturday, 28 January 2012
Yeah baby!
I finally did it!!
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Mad luv,
Nikki
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can't wait to see you there :)
Mad luv,
Nikki
Wednesday, 25 January 2012
And the results are in!! WAHOO!
The measurements:
Compared to January 4th, 2012 (last measurments):
@ bellybutton: 32.5 DOWN 1.5 inches!!!!
Le Boobies: 37 DOWN AN INCH WAHOOOOOO!
Back: 31" - unchanged
Thigh: 20" unchanged
Hips: 35" DOWN AN INCH!!!
Bicep: 11" unchanged
I AM SO EXCITED! IT'S WORKING IT'S WORKING!!!
My diet switch-a-rooney is working. I could probably see more results if I wasn't such a wine head at night but if you have children, you understand. I can't and won't give that up even for tighter abs ha ha ha.
Here is a pic from today. I admit it's not my most flattering as I had just finished chest, shoulders and biceps in P90x but I was feeling awesome in that moment (now I'm ready for bed ha ha ha).
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| January 25, 2012 |
If you recall, this was me at the starting line:
It is slightly mortifying to think these images are out there for all the world to see BUT I"M NEVER GOING TO LOOK LIKE THAT AGAIN! Soooooooo I'll get over it.
It's now 4:30pm and it's time for me to get crackin' on dinner. Hungry children are challenging to deal with and we have much to do this evening.
I'm just so excited, thanks for sharing in this moment with me. Can't wait to see where I am at in thirty more days!!!
Mad luv,
Nikki
Monday, 23 January 2012
Monday January 22,2012
In this moment, I feel totally awesome! I completed today's workout, the babes complied (well sort of... at first she took every opportunity to crawl over to me and on my while planking etc as she was trying to get mum's attention. once again, saved by the jolly jumper!) and my son was content with his Lego. They are all in the room with me while I workout. It's the only way I can get it in so tis the way we do the do around here.
I am feeling good about things these days. I have stopped beating myself up on days where in I have to change things up and instead pat myself on the back for every effort I make. This weekend, as an example, I could not pull off any of the P90 programs due to the duration of them. Instead, I pulled out some of my 30 minute yoga DVD's and completed those. I felt fantastic for having done something and as my family was around, felt like I was a good role model for them. It's what is really driving me these days - my kids. My daughter is so aware of body image that by never talking about calories or fat or whatever but just rather doing the do, I'm teaching her more than my words could convey. Or so I hope anyway. I am also realising that my lessons to her in life are quickly diminished if any friend says anything otherwise. Amazing the influence kids have on one another. BUT in my perfect little world inside my head, I'm on the right path.
I am seeing results. I will measure myself as soon as I find my measuring tape. My daughter took off with it and it seems to be lost in space at the moment. I will pick up another if I don't recover it soon as I'm dying to know where I am at.
One incredibly annoying discovery - only one boob is shrinking. WHAT IS THAT? I am way too old to stuff my bra and it is becoming noticeable. It's at least two sizes smaller. So annoying. SO annoying!!! Not sure what to do about that except keep working. Clearly mother nature isn't appreciating my need for symmetry ha ha ha.
Re; food - I am so proud of myself. I've cleared out all our cupboards and there is no junk in the house. Not even my beloved pasta. It has been replaced by Quinoa pasta and rice noodles for the kiddos. They didn't even notice. I have also brought quinoa into our stir fry dinners vs. rice. So far, so good. The kids aren't complaining (except for my son re; quinoa vs rice. He declared it disgusting without ever having tried it - he did however eat the quinoa pasta without issue - win win for mom!)
The mornings are oatmeal, a soup follows (bean soups), lunches are chicken w/ veggies or quinoa with veggie stir fry as second lunch, dinners are greens w/ sprouts (garlic and bean sprouts usually) and a protein such as chicken or nuts or beef. I am a beef eater. I know, I know, not the usual route but I'm so chickened out and turkey - except once in a blue moon - grosses me out. I don't do fish without mounds of batter - so clearly it's out too. I have issues I admit BUT there's always a way around that!! I feel good..really good. I also managed to sleep a lot this weekend (my poor hubby! I fell asleep at 9pm one night! Wild Saturday ha ha ha). I am so lucky to have his support, even when at the expense of our time. He's fantastic.
And on that note, it's time to boogie. I want to make my awesome hubby a stew for dinner. Time to get cooking! In just over two months it's back to work for me. I want to take advantage of this and be sweet when I can :)
Until next time,
be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
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| My daughter jumping along with me while I was kicking along with P90x cardio |
I am seeing results. I will measure myself as soon as I find my measuring tape. My daughter took off with it and it seems to be lost in space at the moment. I will pick up another if I don't recover it soon as I'm dying to know where I am at.
One incredibly annoying discovery - only one boob is shrinking. WHAT IS THAT? I am way too old to stuff my bra and it is becoming noticeable. It's at least two sizes smaller. So annoying. SO annoying!!! Not sure what to do about that except keep working. Clearly mother nature isn't appreciating my need for symmetry ha ha ha.
Re; food - I am so proud of myself. I've cleared out all our cupboards and there is no junk in the house. Not even my beloved pasta. It has been replaced by Quinoa pasta and rice noodles for the kiddos. They didn't even notice. I have also brought quinoa into our stir fry dinners vs. rice. So far, so good. The kids aren't complaining (except for my son re; quinoa vs rice. He declared it disgusting without ever having tried it - he did however eat the quinoa pasta without issue - win win for mom!)
The mornings are oatmeal, a soup follows (bean soups), lunches are chicken w/ veggies or quinoa with veggie stir fry as second lunch, dinners are greens w/ sprouts (garlic and bean sprouts usually) and a protein such as chicken or nuts or beef. I am a beef eater. I know, I know, not the usual route but I'm so chickened out and turkey - except once in a blue moon - grosses me out. I don't do fish without mounds of batter - so clearly it's out too. I have issues I admit BUT there's always a way around that!! I feel good..really good. I also managed to sleep a lot this weekend (my poor hubby! I fell asleep at 9pm one night! Wild Saturday ha ha ha). I am so lucky to have his support, even when at the expense of our time. He's fantastic.
And on that note, it's time to boogie. I want to make my awesome hubby a stew for dinner. Time to get cooking! In just over two months it's back to work for me. I want to take advantage of this and be sweet when I can :)
Until next time,
be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
Thursday, 19 January 2012
DOH!
One step forward, one huge kink in the plan. My daughter is refusing to sleep longer than two hours at a time. She has three teeth coming in. Lord help me.
Sleep is so crucial to success. I am dying a thousand exhausting deaths right now.
So...what to do. Work through it. I just have to watch myself. When I am tired I eat. Anything. Everything. Anything LOL. Instead of eating every 2.5 to 3 hours, I'm eating about every 1.5 - 2 today. SOOO portion control, food control ( meaning clean foods), lots and lots of water and taking it easy. Yes, I am still going to work out BUT not the P90x today. I am so tired and achy from the last workouts that I just cannot do it today. So instead I am going to do Yoga this afternoon (not the P90x yoga - is too lengthy for me today). It's still intense, but relaxing all at once. I can't wait. I'm holding out on the Jolly Jumper until workout time so my monkey doesn't get bored and interfere. That or maybe, possibly, hopefully with intense begging she will sleep...for at least 40 minutes which is the duration of the workout ha ha!
I am seeing results which is keeping me really motivated. It's getting closer, the goal that is. I can see myself as I want to be and am so hungry for that result. One day closer......!
Sleep is so crucial to success. I am dying a thousand exhausting deaths right now.
So...what to do. Work through it. I just have to watch myself. When I am tired I eat. Anything. Everything. Anything LOL. Instead of eating every 2.5 to 3 hours, I'm eating about every 1.5 - 2 today. SOOO portion control, food control ( meaning clean foods), lots and lots of water and taking it easy. Yes, I am still going to work out BUT not the P90x today. I am so tired and achy from the last workouts that I just cannot do it today. So instead I am going to do Yoga this afternoon (not the P90x yoga - is too lengthy for me today). It's still intense, but relaxing all at once. I can't wait. I'm holding out on the Jolly Jumper until workout time so my monkey doesn't get bored and interfere. That or maybe, possibly, hopefully with intense begging she will sleep...for at least 40 minutes which is the duration of the workout ha ha!
I am seeing results which is keeping me really motivated. It's getting closer, the goal that is. I can see myself as I want to be and am so hungry for that result. One day closer......!
Wednesday, 18 January 2012
January 18, twenty twelve
It feels good to be back in action so to speak. I sweat like a pig in my workouts yesterday and today. De-toxing I suppose ha ha. It was a good sweat. I know I am working hard and it's nothing a HOT shower can't cure afterwards. I do so love that post workout shower. The best thing I ever did was switch to tank less hot water heaters....it never runs out!!!
I have to admit that like a child the second I know I can't have something, it's all I want. I actually dreamed about pasta last night. How ridiculous is that??? It's only day two of the no flour deal.....it may be a long month ha ha ha. Worth it yes BUT mucho de difficult. I will survive...and when I hit my target goal, it will have been worth it.
I am not suffering food wise. I made a huge batch of one of my favourite soups ( nine bean soup w/ lentils, spicy salsa and corn. Yum). I also made a large veggie stir fry in which I add either nuts or chicken ( chicken gets boring quickly.... after years of eating only chicken while competing I have to force myself to eat it - I have fallen out of love with it regardless of what spices etc. I use). AND last but not least, salads with either chicken or seeds added. I enjoy them so that is not tedious in terms of complying with the game plan. I eat my highest caloric meals earlier in the day. I follow the "eat like a king at breakfast (both breakfasts), a queen at lunch (both lunches), and a peasant at dinner (both dinners - six meals / day). I tailor off on the calories as the day progresses. Why? It is harder to burn those calories as the day progresses. I am most active in the mornings and early afternoon. By the evening my children have worn me down and all I want to do is plop myself on the couch and be brain dead in front of the TV or a good book. Kind of sucks for my hubby ha ha, but it's all I can manage these days. He's not much better. We seem to be more worn down post vacation than prior!!
Well, the babes is cranking and my son is acting like a delirious monkey right now. My eldest is in deep protest I am forcing her to do her homework before she has any freedom. A typical evening you could say...and just one more reason for mom to crack the vino tonight. Thank God for wine....all gods. It keeps me sane!!
Until next time,
be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
I have to admit that like a child the second I know I can't have something, it's all I want. I actually dreamed about pasta last night. How ridiculous is that??? It's only day two of the no flour deal.....it may be a long month ha ha ha. Worth it yes BUT mucho de difficult. I will survive...and when I hit my target goal, it will have been worth it.
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| how beautiful does that look? one of my personal fav's and hideous for the waistline.... |
I am not suffering food wise. I made a huge batch of one of my favourite soups ( nine bean soup w/ lentils, spicy salsa and corn. Yum). I also made a large veggie stir fry in which I add either nuts or chicken ( chicken gets boring quickly.... after years of eating only chicken while competing I have to force myself to eat it - I have fallen out of love with it regardless of what spices etc. I use). AND last but not least, salads with either chicken or seeds added. I enjoy them so that is not tedious in terms of complying with the game plan. I eat my highest caloric meals earlier in the day. I follow the "eat like a king at breakfast (both breakfasts), a queen at lunch (both lunches), and a peasant at dinner (both dinners - six meals / day). I tailor off on the calories as the day progresses. Why? It is harder to burn those calories as the day progresses. I am most active in the mornings and early afternoon. By the evening my children have worn me down and all I want to do is plop myself on the couch and be brain dead in front of the TV or a good book. Kind of sucks for my hubby ha ha, but it's all I can manage these days. He's not much better. We seem to be more worn down post vacation than prior!!
Well, the babes is cranking and my son is acting like a delirious monkey right now. My eldest is in deep protest I am forcing her to do her homework before she has any freedom. A typical evening you could say...and just one more reason for mom to crack the vino tonight. Thank God for wine....all gods. It keeps me sane!!
Until next time,
be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
Monday, 16 January 2012
Back to reality.......
Well, it's over. Vacation that is. It was amazing, and exhausting, but amazing. It was awesome to see how excited the kids were meeting the various characters and to just soak up the sun (it was warm the first few days, so so for a few days and bloody freezing on our last day). If you have never been and are considering, I would recommend it. It really is a great place for a family to go and play together. I really, really enjoyed my time with my hubby and kiddos. It was wonderful.
Disney world is magical for kids, huge amounts of work and planning for parents. I had been told there were many ways to eat cleanly while there, however, what they call healthy options is definitely not the healthiest of options. It will be a long time before I can eat another burger that's for sure!
I was so disappointed in the options. I ate some great food, but it wasn't healthy food. Smashed potatoes with unbelievable volumes of salt, burgers ( didn't do fries, started to feel ill from the food as it was all so salty and oily or butter covered). I would get so excited when veggies came with anything only to discover they too were covered in salt, butter, creamy sauces. It makes you feel gross after a while, or at least it did me.
We stayed in a cabin at the Fort Wilderness area in Disney world itself. We ate cleanly in our cabin. We had ordered groceries from wegoshop.com and I found myself looking forward to the meals we prepared for ourselves. We had opted to purchase their meal plan so there was no way we were wasting any part of it, it was expensive! But what people ate...oh my. If this is what people think is healthy, our future is not looking well. Hot dogs covered in chili with sour cream was probably one of the grossest things I saw being eaten. Very large children sitting and inhaling them with giant sodas beside them. I think I know where the creators of Wall-e got their inspiration for the future of mankind..........!!! It was scary. I also couldn't believe how many larger sized young people were using scooters. Why?? Why do we allow this? How will they ever lose the excess weight or be well if they aren't even walking?
It made me want this that much more, not just for me, but for my children. It scares me to think that so much misinformation is out there that people have totally lost touch with what good health is. I don't blame people, I think people really don't know better. Even the way Disney markets their GMO food and fish to children during their tour is really scary to me. And that they serve it in their restaurants without notifying you that you are eating a hybrid fish or GMO veggie is wrong in my opinion. I love their technologies and attempts to maximise crops in all climate conditions, as well as their attempt to grow and provide for themselves, but am in disbelief that this is being preached to children in a Disney sort of way that makes them believe this is the best route our society can take for the future. It isn't right....at least that is my opinion. I would never serve that to my children in our home. I hope for all of society regardless of were you find yourself in terms of geography that GMO products are labelled so people can make educated decisions.
I did manage to lose more weight last week even with the intake of junk. I had to use portion control with the fast food style meals and to help myself not to get too ravenous I travelled with apples and nut/seed bars as my snacks. My kids were also given healthy snacks from the groceries we acquired and we would use our "snack" options for water. There is a way if you want it badly enough to be smart with choices and blend the good with the bad, I wanted it. Besides, I really, really, really wanted to intake any extra calories in the form of beer. It is vacation after all and Disney requires beer. I was so disappointed to discover the Magic Kingdom is a "dry" park! OMG after surviving the day with three children I deserved beer/wine anything alcoholic at dinner!!!
We flew in late last night so today is my down day. Tomorrow, back in action. I have grocery shopped already and am excited to really shred out now. It's go time! I return to work in just under three months. It's now or never, so now it is!
During this phase I am eliminating all things made with flour. One as I still feel gross from all the binging while away and two as I am eager to get my results.
SO stay tuned, the new and improved physical me is just a few weeks away. I am so excited I can't wait. I just have to survive my beer and wine with drawl for the next few weeks. I will have a glass or two of wine in the evenings, but not the volumes I really want ha ha ha. I can do it, I know I can.
I will increase my logs from this point and share more of the diet and what not. I am a momma on a mission to metamorph into one fit chick. Stay tuned as they say, there is much to see in the weeks to come.
Be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
Disney world is magical for kids, huge amounts of work and planning for parents. I had been told there were many ways to eat cleanly while there, however, what they call healthy options is definitely not the healthiest of options. It will be a long time before I can eat another burger that's for sure!
I was so disappointed in the options. I ate some great food, but it wasn't healthy food. Smashed potatoes with unbelievable volumes of salt, burgers ( didn't do fries, started to feel ill from the food as it was all so salty and oily or butter covered). I would get so excited when veggies came with anything only to discover they too were covered in salt, butter, creamy sauces. It makes you feel gross after a while, or at least it did me.
We stayed in a cabin at the Fort Wilderness area in Disney world itself. We ate cleanly in our cabin. We had ordered groceries from wegoshop.com and I found myself looking forward to the meals we prepared for ourselves. We had opted to purchase their meal plan so there was no way we were wasting any part of it, it was expensive! But what people ate...oh my. If this is what people think is healthy, our future is not looking well. Hot dogs covered in chili with sour cream was probably one of the grossest things I saw being eaten. Very large children sitting and inhaling them with giant sodas beside them. I think I know where the creators of Wall-e got their inspiration for the future of mankind..........!!! It was scary. I also couldn't believe how many larger sized young people were using scooters. Why?? Why do we allow this? How will they ever lose the excess weight or be well if they aren't even walking?
It made me want this that much more, not just for me, but for my children. It scares me to think that so much misinformation is out there that people have totally lost touch with what good health is. I don't blame people, I think people really don't know better. Even the way Disney markets their GMO food and fish to children during their tour is really scary to me. And that they serve it in their restaurants without notifying you that you are eating a hybrid fish or GMO veggie is wrong in my opinion. I love their technologies and attempts to maximise crops in all climate conditions, as well as their attempt to grow and provide for themselves, but am in disbelief that this is being preached to children in a Disney sort of way that makes them believe this is the best route our society can take for the future. It isn't right....at least that is my opinion. I would never serve that to my children in our home. I hope for all of society regardless of were you find yourself in terms of geography that GMO products are labelled so people can make educated decisions.
I did manage to lose more weight last week even with the intake of junk. I had to use portion control with the fast food style meals and to help myself not to get too ravenous I travelled with apples and nut/seed bars as my snacks. My kids were also given healthy snacks from the groceries we acquired and we would use our "snack" options for water. There is a way if you want it badly enough to be smart with choices and blend the good with the bad, I wanted it. Besides, I really, really, really wanted to intake any extra calories in the form of beer. It is vacation after all and Disney requires beer. I was so disappointed to discover the Magic Kingdom is a "dry" park! OMG after surviving the day with three children I deserved beer/wine anything alcoholic at dinner!!!
We flew in late last night so today is my down day. Tomorrow, back in action. I have grocery shopped already and am excited to really shred out now. It's go time! I return to work in just under three months. It's now or never, so now it is!
During this phase I am eliminating all things made with flour. One as I still feel gross from all the binging while away and two as I am eager to get my results.
SO stay tuned, the new and improved physical me is just a few weeks away. I am so excited I can't wait. I just have to survive my beer and wine with drawl for the next few weeks. I will have a glass or two of wine in the evenings, but not the volumes I really want ha ha ha. I can do it, I know I can.
I will increase my logs from this point and share more of the diet and what not. I am a momma on a mission to metamorph into one fit chick. Stay tuned as they say, there is much to see in the weeks to come.
Be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
2012...
First and Foremost - the thirty day measurements....let's just get right down to it!
@ bellybutton: 34" back 31" - 1 " Thigh 20 + 1/2"
chest 38 (dammit!) hips 36" - 1/2" bicep 11"
I feel really good about what I did manage to accomplish this past month. I can't believe honestly I was able to pull off the workouts. It has been said many times if you want something badly enough you will make time for it. I want this, it is going to happen.
So much so my husband now thinks I am insane! We are off on our first family vacation this Sunday. Four sleeps as the kids announced this morning. We are off to Orlando Florida and are Disney bound. We found a great package and are so excited to stay in a cabin in the Wilderness lodge in the park itself. One HUGE bonus, the kitchen. I researched options in the area and....I'm totally high fiving myself on this one....have Whole foods delivering a fresh batch of organic produce and meats the day we arrive to our lodge. We have a kitchen and BBQ in our cabin. SO AWESOME. I can still eat clean while we play! Yes, we have the dining plan and yes, there will be pig out sessions and my usual mass amount of wine and now beer consumed BUT I won't go overboard. I'm preparing for this and making sure I can still stay on track with my ultimate goal. I will be the lean me I want to be, it's going to take extra push ups upon my return, however, my skipping rope will be packed along with my clothes!
I'm looking forward to updating this blog upon our return.
Cheers!
Nicole
@ bellybutton: 34" back 31" - 1 " Thigh 20 + 1/2"
chest 38 (dammit!) hips 36" - 1/2" bicep 11"
I feel really good about what I did manage to accomplish this past month. I can't believe honestly I was able to pull off the workouts. It has been said many times if you want something badly enough you will make time for it. I want this, it is going to happen.
So much so my husband now thinks I am insane! We are off on our first family vacation this Sunday. Four sleeps as the kids announced this morning. We are off to Orlando Florida and are Disney bound. We found a great package and are so excited to stay in a cabin in the Wilderness lodge in the park itself. One HUGE bonus, the kitchen. I researched options in the area and....I'm totally high fiving myself on this one....have Whole foods delivering a fresh batch of organic produce and meats the day we arrive to our lodge. We have a kitchen and BBQ in our cabin. SO AWESOME. I can still eat clean while we play! Yes, we have the dining plan and yes, there will be pig out sessions and my usual mass amount of wine and now beer consumed BUT I won't go overboard. I'm preparing for this and making sure I can still stay on track with my ultimate goal. I will be the lean me I want to be, it's going to take extra push ups upon my return, however, my skipping rope will be packed along with my clothes!
I'm looking forward to updating this blog upon our return.
Cheers!
Nicole
Friday, 30 December 2011
A Mom moment
This morning as my hubby slept (we are taking turns sleeping in during our vacation), the kiddos and I did Yoga in the basement. Listening to the kids talk about how we are building muscle and getting strong made me feel so unbelievably proud.
My now 6 yr old daughter has friends who talk about not wanting to be "fat" etc. which really upsets me. At this age those grown up thoughts should not be in their minds. Asking me how many calories there are and what makes you fat etc....bothersome! So I have been so careful to use words that are positive and healthy vs negative and harsh. I never talk about losing weight, just gaining strength and power.
Having the two big kiddos moving into warrior positions etc., I felt myself smiling ear to ear. This is just the beginning for us, not just for me but as a family. I am so lucky they are willing to play along!
Now only if we could get the hubby to get into a downward dog LOL....
Wishing you a wonderful workout and a great day,
N.
My now 6 yr old daughter has friends who talk about not wanting to be "fat" etc. which really upsets me. At this age those grown up thoughts should not be in their minds. Asking me how many calories there are and what makes you fat etc....bothersome! So I have been so careful to use words that are positive and healthy vs negative and harsh. I never talk about losing weight, just gaining strength and power.
Having the two big kiddos moving into warrior positions etc., I felt myself smiling ear to ear. This is just the beginning for us, not just for me but as a family. I am so lucky they are willing to play along!
Now only if we could get the hubby to get into a downward dog LOL....
Wishing you a wonderful workout and a great day,
N.
Thursday, 29 December 2011
An update!
Yeesh, I've been slacking! My family is on vacation together at the moment. This happens only twice per year as my hubby shuts down shop for the holidays and once in the summer. To say the last week has been awesome would be an understatement. I'm really enjoying our time together.
I've been behaving in contrast to what the holidays should encompass. I haven't OD'd on anything or dove too deeply off the deep end when opportunities present them self. I did have a kick ass dirty burger with fries yesterday during lunch with a favourite friend of mine, and, several billion glasses of wine over the past week. But otherwise, not bad! I'm so impressed with myself!
Workout wise, not so good. I've been sleeping. Which I desperately need. So inconsistent would best describe my workouts. I"m ok with this though, I'm exhausted and I am seeing results. The workout layoff ends in the morning however, I feel really good today.
I'm due for my pics this Friday, no problem! I know I have lost more in my back and look forward to when I can say the same is happening in the belly and boobs. One push up at a time, IT WILL HAPPEN!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Cheers,
Nikki
I've been behaving in contrast to what the holidays should encompass. I haven't OD'd on anything or dove too deeply off the deep end when opportunities present them self. I did have a kick ass dirty burger with fries yesterday during lunch with a favourite friend of mine, and, several billion glasses of wine over the past week. But otherwise, not bad! I'm so impressed with myself!
Workout wise, not so good. I've been sleeping. Which I desperately need. So inconsistent would best describe my workouts. I"m ok with this though, I'm exhausted and I am seeing results. The workout layoff ends in the morning however, I feel really good today.
I'm due for my pics this Friday, no problem! I know I have lost more in my back and look forward to when I can say the same is happening in the belly and boobs. One push up at a time, IT WILL HAPPEN!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Cheers,
Nikki
Monday, 19 December 2011
A teenie tiny bit worn out....
Ok more like seriously worn out.
I fell asleep today sitting upright in a chair. My big plan was to finish folding the laundry, workout and run errands. I folded laundry, sat for a second before I planned on putting it away. What felt like one milli second later I awoke to my daughter's voice in the baby monitor. She had awoken from her nap, and clearly so had I!
No workout today. I was and am bummed. I am running on close to empty. I have to listen to my body if I want this to work.... maybe next time I will listen vs have it just shut down on me.
That said, I'm still exhausted. I'm going to lie in bed and watch the Terra Nova finale and pass out with my hubby. Once upon a time we were wilder, but now, this is wild!
Goodnight!
Cheers,
Nikki
I fell asleep today sitting upright in a chair. My big plan was to finish folding the laundry, workout and run errands. I folded laundry, sat for a second before I planned on putting it away. What felt like one milli second later I awoke to my daughter's voice in the baby monitor. She had awoken from her nap, and clearly so had I!
No workout today. I was and am bummed. I am running on close to empty. I have to listen to my body if I want this to work.... maybe next time I will listen vs have it just shut down on me.
That said, I'm still exhausted. I'm going to lie in bed and watch the Terra Nova finale and pass out with my hubby. Once upon a time we were wilder, but now, this is wild!
Goodnight!
Cheers,
Nikki
Saturday, 17 December 2011
P90x pain...bringin it.
I cannot believe how many muscles I clearly haven't been using over the past few years. I'm in (now completed) week 2 of the P90x program. I am so so sore.
I like it.
I feel very alive this week. I am very aware of myself, mostly due to incredible muscle fatigue and tenderness but it's worth it. The end result is worth it. My eating is going well, my workouts have been amazing. It's been wonderful.
Today I was not able to workout, but am ok with it. Today was my daughter's 6th bday. It was a crazy busy day but totally worth it. I just behaved diet wise. I have a plate of cupcakes about thirty feet away and I have yet to attack it. It isn't worth it. I'm working way too hard.
Don't get me wrong though, my halo is somewhat tarnished by the giant glass of red wine that accompanies me at the computer desk at the moment. I do so love my wine. I will sacrifice cupcakes and other seasonal temptations simply to make way for the caloric overdose from vino.
I'm heading to bed now in hopes of a few uninterupted hours of sleep. I'm also hoping for a full yoga workout in the morining. Fingers crossed.....
N.
I like it.
I feel very alive this week. I am very aware of myself, mostly due to incredible muscle fatigue and tenderness but it's worth it. The end result is worth it. My eating is going well, my workouts have been amazing. It's been wonderful.
Today I was not able to workout, but am ok with it. Today was my daughter's 6th bday. It was a crazy busy day but totally worth it. I just behaved diet wise. I have a plate of cupcakes about thirty feet away and I have yet to attack it. It isn't worth it. I'm working way too hard.
Don't get me wrong though, my halo is somewhat tarnished by the giant glass of red wine that accompanies me at the computer desk at the moment. I do so love my wine. I will sacrifice cupcakes and other seasonal temptations simply to make way for the caloric overdose from vino.
I'm heading to bed now in hopes of a few uninterupted hours of sleep. I'm also hoping for a full yoga workout in the morining. Fingers crossed.....
N.
Sunday, 11 December 2011
Shape shifting bust...
Last night I was so pumped to be able to escape the chaos that is my house on a Saturday evening and attend a family wedding (hubby's side). This was a black tie affair and the kiddos were staying home with my parents.
We both bought new outfits and couldn't wait to get out.
I found myself actually a little shy to be putting on control top panty hose in front of my husband. We were in rush mode aka our normal. My folks showed up late, my husband worked late and I had to bolt out to pick up my eldest from her friends bday party. It was 5pm. Antipasto starts at 5:30. I hadn't showered yet and my husband wasn't even home. Fast forward to after a fast shower, quick hair blow dry and racing to get dressed at 6pm.
I tried on several dresses for this event. I felt like I was in a moo moo in all of them. It's the boobs, they shoot the dress out five feet from my frame just trying to get around them. So not flattering. So I went a different route, I bought a suit. A killer Marciano black totally gorgeous power suit. Madden killer heels finished the outfit. The blouse was fitted. My boobs are humongous, they def. looked humongous. NO hiding them. I wanted to wear a shape shifting aka spanx top for the not-yet-toned tummy. I bought it, the rep picked the size for me after having sized me for a bra. She knew....she knew and yet she sold me a shape shifter that wouldn't go over my boobs. I was totally stuck in it. My husband had to help me out! What do you do with that? Nothing. Laugh at yourself and put the blouse on. It just means perfect posture is required at all times or the rolls are busting out! That and no matter how hot it gets I am not taking off the jacket. It hides much and looks awesome.
I'm not getting any deeper with age.
In the end this was a huge motivator to behave all night (WINE EXCLUDED). I have completed my first full week of P90x. I'm going to go the distance. I didn't eat the creamy soup or the cheese laden pasta. I did eat (inhale and practically lick the plate of) the filet Mignon w/ asparagus and stuffed mushroom, as well as, the green salad with apple and parm. cheese. I didn't eat desserts ( one bite size choc. chip cookie) from the huge dessert table. I behaved. I am going to do this!
I'm lucky to have a hubby that puts up with me during all of this...and who will remove the stuck spanx for me and not say a word. Bless him.
We both bought new outfits and couldn't wait to get out.
I found myself actually a little shy to be putting on control top panty hose in front of my husband. We were in rush mode aka our normal. My folks showed up late, my husband worked late and I had to bolt out to pick up my eldest from her friends bday party. It was 5pm. Antipasto starts at 5:30. I hadn't showered yet and my husband wasn't even home. Fast forward to after a fast shower, quick hair blow dry and racing to get dressed at 6pm.
I tried on several dresses for this event. I felt like I was in a moo moo in all of them. It's the boobs, they shoot the dress out five feet from my frame just trying to get around them. So not flattering. So I went a different route, I bought a suit. A killer Marciano black totally gorgeous power suit. Madden killer heels finished the outfit. The blouse was fitted. My boobs are humongous, they def. looked humongous. NO hiding them. I wanted to wear a shape shifting aka spanx top for the not-yet-toned tummy. I bought it, the rep picked the size for me after having sized me for a bra. She knew....she knew and yet she sold me a shape shifter that wouldn't go over my boobs. I was totally stuck in it. My husband had to help me out! What do you do with that? Nothing. Laugh at yourself and put the blouse on. It just means perfect posture is required at all times or the rolls are busting out! That and no matter how hot it gets I am not taking off the jacket. It hides much and looks awesome.
I'm not getting any deeper with age.
In the end this was a huge motivator to behave all night (WINE EXCLUDED). I have completed my first full week of P90x. I'm going to go the distance. I didn't eat the creamy soup or the cheese laden pasta. I did eat (inhale and practically lick the plate of) the filet Mignon w/ asparagus and stuffed mushroom, as well as, the green salad with apple and parm. cheese. I didn't eat desserts ( one bite size choc. chip cookie) from the huge dessert table. I behaved. I am going to do this!
I'm lucky to have a hubby that puts up with me during all of this...and who will remove the stuck spanx for me and not say a word. Bless him.
Saturday, 10 December 2011
The beginning...and it's not pretty!
Well, here it is. The moment. The "before" moment.
I've been staring at these pics....for a couple of reasons. Sometimes it's hard to believe this is actually you, which I cannot believe it's actually me. And secondly, aside from the boobs and belly, I am not off to a bad start! It's all prego related. As much as I am not liking what I see, I love why it happened. It was all worth it. It's going to be worth getting rid of it, but the "why" factor, worth every moment.
This is me, 3 and a half pregnancies under my belt ( ze momma gutty belt naturally ha ha).... 7.5 months post partum.... at the very beginning of my P90x adventures.
I do feel fantastic AND I am enjoying this so much I am eating well. I watched my family inhale swiss chalet french fries last night (treat night)...but not moi. I managed to make it through without spazing or suddenly lunging across the table to snort them before they could eat them. I'm going to make it to this finish line with the results I want...I want it that bad.
Make it a great day!
Cheers, and thanks for reading.
Nic.
I've been staring at these pics....for a couple of reasons. Sometimes it's hard to believe this is actually you, which I cannot believe it's actually me. And secondly, aside from the boobs and belly, I am not off to a bad start! It's all prego related. As much as I am not liking what I see, I love why it happened. It was all worth it. It's going to be worth getting rid of it, but the "why" factor, worth every moment.
This is me, 3 and a half pregnancies under my belt ( ze momma gutty belt naturally ha ha).... 7.5 months post partum.... at the very beginning of my P90x adventures.
I do feel fantastic AND I am enjoying this so much I am eating well. I watched my family inhale swiss chalet french fries last night (treat night)...but not moi. I managed to make it through without spazing or suddenly lunging across the table to snort them before they could eat them. I'm going to make it to this finish line with the results I want...I want it that bad.
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Today my eldest is home in addition to my younger two monkeys. The upside, she and Ryan play and Rachel is thrilled to watch them. I can work out with a little less interruptions. Awesomeness!! Must boogie to get the kids to their swimming lessons...but when we return, workout time!Make it a great day!
Cheers, and thanks for reading.
Nic.
Friday, 9 December 2011
Some days good, some days.....yeeeesh.
I never would have imagined how much I am enjoying Yoga these days. I love the way I feel during and after the workout. It always seemed incredibly boring to me, slow...boring...so not my thing. I was really looking forward to today's workout.
One huge drawback to P90x is the duration of the workouts. You can do shorter more intense workouts and get amazing results, but I do enjoy this program. Today's workout is 92 minutes. It's bloody well impossible to pull it all off without interuptions.
Today was BRUTAL. I feel like more of a fire breathing dragon right now vs a calm yogi as I should. My son was relentless and there was no pleasing my daughter. To further annoy me, she is totally content as I type this right now in the very thing she was in then, however, screaming at that time. Her jolly jumper. I tried everything today. Play pen, mat, jolly jumper, exersaucer, floor play, chair time... she just refused to co-operate. She was fed, clean, just wanted mom. And Mom just wanted a workout! I managed 45 minutes. Not bad, but four thousand interuptions later there was a serious lack of flow.
I guess there's always tomorrow, but was so looking forward to today.
Trying to applaud what I did pull off but wishing it was more.
I took the photo's. I will post them later on today once I find where my son hid the cord. He thinks he's cute, he didn't notice mom has mutated into a fire breathing dragon yet...
At least tonight there will be wine with my hubby by the fire. I know, so not what someone who is looking to lean out should be doing...but life needs to be lived with balance...and wine. Lots and lots of it.
Cheers!!!
One huge drawback to P90x is the duration of the workouts. You can do shorter more intense workouts and get amazing results, but I do enjoy this program. Today's workout is 92 minutes. It's bloody well impossible to pull it all off without interuptions.
Today was BRUTAL. I feel like more of a fire breathing dragon right now vs a calm yogi as I should. My son was relentless and there was no pleasing my daughter. To further annoy me, she is totally content as I type this right now in the very thing she was in then, however, screaming at that time. Her jolly jumper. I tried everything today. Play pen, mat, jolly jumper, exersaucer, floor play, chair time... she just refused to co-operate. She was fed, clean, just wanted mom. And Mom just wanted a workout! I managed 45 minutes. Not bad, but four thousand interuptions later there was a serious lack of flow.
I guess there's always tomorrow, but was so looking forward to today.
Trying to applaud what I did pull off but wishing it was more.
I took the photo's. I will post them later on today once I find where my son hid the cord. He thinks he's cute, he didn't notice mom has mutated into a fire breathing dragon yet...
At least tonight there will be wine with my hubby by the fire. I know, so not what someone who is looking to lean out should be doing...but life needs to be lived with balance...and wine. Lots and lots of it.
Cheers!!!
Thursday, 8 December 2011
P90x.
I can hear this little voice inside my head telling me to get moving already. For every minute I sit idle, someone else somewhere else is working harder than I am at achieving the same goal. So I've been really pushing myself...and I honestly feel fantastic.
It's been brutal though, the everyday workout. That's the thing with P90x - you really do have to train as laid out for maximum results. The TRX system I LOVE...but the co-ordinating b/w the two workouts is more than I have time for right now. I really, really need to just do as I am told. I am so distracted and so tired.
My workouts themselves are full of moments wherein my kids are vying for my attention. If I can train first thing after dropping kids at school, I do. However, I've had to utilise that time to accomplish Christmas shopping. Secret missions!
SO I'm stuck working out usually just after lunch time. Brutal. My son is home in addition to my seven month old. Yesterday my son really would have preferred if I watched him transform his transformers the entire workout while Rachel kept rolling herself across the room to get onto my mat. I was constantly moving her back to her area ( the jumper proved more of an issue and she screamed in the playpen, this was third option). She had alternate ideas as to how we were going to spend our time. I still managed to pull it off, just thinking Tony didn't envision these scenarios of his audience ha ha. Rachel began screaming at me with about twenty minutes remaining in the workout. As I was exercising I was singing Mary had a little lamb while acknowledging my sons transformation of transformers. It was just as tiring as the workout. I almost made it - had 10 minutes to go and had to stop it to pick her up. It's ok though. I've decided to start applauding myself for what I could pull off vs focusing on what was still remaining to complete. I can only do what I can do, I just have to push myself in the time that I do have to get the most from it.
I will get it done.
So now I have joined the P90x on line community for support, set myself up for success diet wise at home and begun recording my workouts/eating so as to track my success towards my goal. This blog is also a big piece of my dedication.
This pic I have attached is from 7 years ago. It was taken this time of year.This shows my frame and so when I post my "before" shots from tonight, you will see exactly how much I have to lose. It's all in the boobs and the belly...the momma belly. I can't wait until it's gone!!!
Well my daughter is now bored with her exersaucer, my moment is over.
Until tomorrow!
Cheers.
N.
It's been brutal though, the everyday workout. That's the thing with P90x - you really do have to train as laid out for maximum results. The TRX system I LOVE...but the co-ordinating b/w the two workouts is more than I have time for right now. I really, really need to just do as I am told. I am so distracted and so tired.
My workouts themselves are full of moments wherein my kids are vying for my attention. If I can train first thing after dropping kids at school, I do. However, I've had to utilise that time to accomplish Christmas shopping. Secret missions!
SO I'm stuck working out usually just after lunch time. Brutal. My son is home in addition to my seven month old. Yesterday my son really would have preferred if I watched him transform his transformers the entire workout while Rachel kept rolling herself across the room to get onto my mat. I was constantly moving her back to her area ( the jumper proved more of an issue and she screamed in the playpen, this was third option). She had alternate ideas as to how we were going to spend our time. I still managed to pull it off, just thinking Tony didn't envision these scenarios of his audience ha ha. Rachel began screaming at me with about twenty minutes remaining in the workout. As I was exercising I was singing Mary had a little lamb while acknowledging my sons transformation of transformers. It was just as tiring as the workout. I almost made it - had 10 minutes to go and had to stop it to pick her up. It's ok though. I've decided to start applauding myself for what I could pull off vs focusing on what was still remaining to complete. I can only do what I can do, I just have to push myself in the time that I do have to get the most from it.
I will get it done.
So now I have joined the P90x on line community for support, set myself up for success diet wise at home and begun recording my workouts/eating so as to track my success towards my goal. This blog is also a big piece of my dedication.
This pic I have attached is from 7 years ago. It was taken this time of year.This shows my frame and so when I post my "before" shots from tonight, you will see exactly how much I have to lose. It's all in the boobs and the belly...the momma belly. I can't wait until it's gone!!!
Well my daughter is now bored with her exersaucer, my moment is over.
Until tomorrow!
Cheers.
N.
Tuesday, 29 November 2011
Phase Two begins....Phase One results.
Although I am pleased there are results to post, I feel like Phase One was a bit of a let down. So much happened in 60 days. My uncle/friend died, my son had pneumonia, my seven month old suddenly decided to stop sleeping at night... I'm exhausted. That said, I am also very motivated for this next chapter.
First and foremost, the results:
My current measurements, as of yesterday: at bellybutton, 34" - unchanged, at boobs 38" - unchanged (damn't!), back 32" - down an inch, thigh 19.5 - up a half inch - I take pride in this...I am gaining muscle again. My legs are becoming shaply vs pipecleaners, hips 36.5 - down half an inch, bicep 11 - again, totally proud of the mini muscle starting to show!
This rounds goals: tighten le tummy, shrink the boobies and regain shape/muscle in arms and legs. We have our first family vacation coming up in January. I would actually like to wear a non-tent-like bathing suit. I can do this, six weeks. Of course, it is the most brutal time of year to diet BUT the reward is worth the sacrifices.
The new year will bring about a whole new series of things to focus on. Hiring a caretaker for my kids, recertifying myself as a personal trainer and re-establishing myself as a facilitator in my workplace. A year away from work is huge. It is so amazing to be home and to spend time with the kids, but the time away is a huge barrier to overcome upon your return. Someone else has totally benefitted from your absence in that they filled your shoes. They may have really shone ( I've been replaced a few times over now, the ego has already been bruised). The flip side is, it is an opportunity to recreate yourself. To be who you want to be and to chase what you want with renewed enthusiasm. I am on a serious mission upon my return. I have very specific, mapped out goals targetting the next 5 years. It will take an enormous amount of effort to get to where I want to be, but it's worth it.
I am on the brink of creating the life I ultimately want to lead with my husband and children. As is he.
One step at a time.
This next step, moi. Reclaiming and reconnecting with myself. This phase will consist of resistance training almost exclusively. Yes, cardio is a good thing, but I am tight for time. Calorically, physically, my results will come if I kick my own ass in resistance training. I am tired, very tired and so I am sticking with following pre-set routines. This time around, P90x and TRX training only. 3-4 x's weekly.
My diet is changing this time around. All breads, pasta's, rice... cutt off after fourth meal ( I eat 6 mini meals a day - starting at approx 7:45 am and every 2/5-3 hrs following. On all days except Saturday and Sunday evenings (those are sacred snack nights with the hubby ha ha). The last two meals of the day will be variances of a lean protein and greens. I have started to get into making my own salad dressings from sunflower seeds/oils, fresh spices and oil/vinegrettes... it is helping to stay on track. Variety is essential! That and I don't want to send the wrong message to my kids. We eat the same foods. I have to ensure they are getting what they need while I am trying to scale back. I believe firmly in us all eating at the same time, the same foods.
I do not count calories. I go by how I feel. If I eat balanced meals throughout the day, I'm fine. If I don't, I will binge afterwards. I have found a balance that works for me and have learned to understand my bodies needs effectively. If I am totally starving, I've strayed from the path. In that case, I have to bust out the cake plate vs dinner plate to ensure portion control. And yes, I've learned to pile food pretty high on those small plates at times. I am my own worst enemy in the food game. I love it. So ensuring consistant meals, consistant regulated servings all day long keep me from pulling into any fast food joint to buy everything they have, that minute.
Well, my time is up for today's blog. The oven timer is about to go off and I have several meals coming out all at once. Multi tasking, multi meal making day. Need to ensure the fridge is stocked with what we need so momma stays on target. Roasted root veggies, a lasagna and banana loafs are coming out. Beef stew and a bean soup have already begun to cool off. Smells kind of funky with so many things cooking at once ha ha ha BUT it is worth it. Once less thing I have to do tomorrow, one more minute I can spend working out.
Be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
First and foremost, the results:
My current measurements, as of yesterday: at bellybutton, 34" - unchanged, at boobs 38" - unchanged (damn't!), back 32" - down an inch, thigh 19.5 - up a half inch - I take pride in this...I am gaining muscle again. My legs are becoming shaply vs pipecleaners, hips 36.5 - down half an inch, bicep 11 - again, totally proud of the mini muscle starting to show!
This rounds goals: tighten le tummy, shrink the boobies and regain shape/muscle in arms and legs. We have our first family vacation coming up in January. I would actually like to wear a non-tent-like bathing suit. I can do this, six weeks. Of course, it is the most brutal time of year to diet BUT the reward is worth the sacrifices.
The new year will bring about a whole new series of things to focus on. Hiring a caretaker for my kids, recertifying myself as a personal trainer and re-establishing myself as a facilitator in my workplace. A year away from work is huge. It is so amazing to be home and to spend time with the kids, but the time away is a huge barrier to overcome upon your return. Someone else has totally benefitted from your absence in that they filled your shoes. They may have really shone ( I've been replaced a few times over now, the ego has already been bruised). The flip side is, it is an opportunity to recreate yourself. To be who you want to be and to chase what you want with renewed enthusiasm. I am on a serious mission upon my return. I have very specific, mapped out goals targetting the next 5 years. It will take an enormous amount of effort to get to where I want to be, but it's worth it.
I am on the brink of creating the life I ultimately want to lead with my husband and children. As is he.
One step at a time.
This next step, moi. Reclaiming and reconnecting with myself. This phase will consist of resistance training almost exclusively. Yes, cardio is a good thing, but I am tight for time. Calorically, physically, my results will come if I kick my own ass in resistance training. I am tired, very tired and so I am sticking with following pre-set routines. This time around, P90x and TRX training only. 3-4 x's weekly.
My diet is changing this time around. All breads, pasta's, rice... cutt off after fourth meal ( I eat 6 mini meals a day - starting at approx 7:45 am and every 2/5-3 hrs following. On all days except Saturday and Sunday evenings (those are sacred snack nights with the hubby ha ha). The last two meals of the day will be variances of a lean protein and greens. I have started to get into making my own salad dressings from sunflower seeds/oils, fresh spices and oil/vinegrettes... it is helping to stay on track. Variety is essential! That and I don't want to send the wrong message to my kids. We eat the same foods. I have to ensure they are getting what they need while I am trying to scale back. I believe firmly in us all eating at the same time, the same foods.
I do not count calories. I go by how I feel. If I eat balanced meals throughout the day, I'm fine. If I don't, I will binge afterwards. I have found a balance that works for me and have learned to understand my bodies needs effectively. If I am totally starving, I've strayed from the path. In that case, I have to bust out the cake plate vs dinner plate to ensure portion control. And yes, I've learned to pile food pretty high on those small plates at times. I am my own worst enemy in the food game. I love it. So ensuring consistant meals, consistant regulated servings all day long keep me from pulling into any fast food joint to buy everything they have, that minute.
Well, my time is up for today's blog. The oven timer is about to go off and I have several meals coming out all at once. Multi tasking, multi meal making day. Need to ensure the fridge is stocked with what we need so momma stays on target. Roasted root veggies, a lasagna and banana loafs are coming out. Beef stew and a bean soup have already begun to cool off. Smells kind of funky with so many things cooking at once ha ha ha BUT it is worth it. Once less thing I have to do tomorrow, one more minute I can spend working out.
Be well.
Mad luv,
Nikki
Friday, 18 November 2011
9 days to go....
So how does one begin this time. Phase One is not going as planned, let's just start with that.
I woke up this morning with a caloric hangover. Seriously h u n g over. I attacked my kids Hallowe'en bowl last night. Not just a little. There were wrappers and chip bags strewn all over the coffee table when my hubby returned from hockey. I had passed out. I'm not painting a pretty picture of myself right now am I ha ha ha.
Yesterday was the cremation of my 44 yr old uncle who passed from cancer this week. We grew up together and grew to be friends, not just family. So yesterday seriously sucked. I ate in between sob fests.
Today, not feeling so hot!
The kids are off school today for a PD day. This is a good thing. Not always, but today it is. They give great hugs, and, yell at you when you touch their candy bowl.
I'm not measuring anything or doing anything until Monday. New week + kids back in school = fresh start.
This loss is also a great motivator. My uncle was fit. He worked out regularly and he ate really well. Here's what I've learned through his battle;
1.There is a huge difference between organic and non-organic foods. We ate identical diets. The days consisted of many salads, lean proteins, fruits and veggies. One key take away was the need to change my families foods to organic as we consume all of the "dirty dozen" foods, as well as, hormone~probiotic~grain GMO fed meats. We were ingesting a huge amount of pesticides/poisons. There are many other factors that contribute to illness, but if I could prevent something for them, I will. Last night as I was sobbing over the candy bowl inhaling out of control volumes of tiny chocolate bars and regular Lays chips I realized, my kids aren't really eating this. There was way too many candies left for this time of year. I don't remember mine lasting long, I ate piles of it in a sitting. Hmmm, seems I haven't grown up much in that respect. My kids don't crave it like I do. They will ask for a banana with granola sprinkled on it before candy. I think I've been keeping all these goodies around for me! If I don't stop eating them my ass is going to explode into much larger jeans! I have to throw them out....
2. Get as much oxygen as you can. Exercise. Use what you were given and keep it alive.
3. Speak your mind. Share your emotions. Allow yourself to really feel all that life has to offer. When you ignore things or fail to deal with things your body will react.
I am actually really looking forward to Monday.
For now, I'm going to enjoy a date night with my hubby tonight ( I will likely inhale a days worth of calories in vino alone hee hee hee, it's our first date night in well over a year! ), a weekend of playing with my kids and cooking the weekly meals on Sunday. I bought a new food processor. We may have twenty styles of salad this week just so I can use it more!
I have lost this month. I'm down a pant size, which blew me away considering all that has happened. The boobs, nada. AnNoYiNg. The mission continues....
Be well.
I woke up this morning with a caloric hangover. Seriously h u n g over. I attacked my kids Hallowe'en bowl last night. Not just a little. There were wrappers and chip bags strewn all over the coffee table when my hubby returned from hockey. I had passed out. I'm not painting a pretty picture of myself right now am I ha ha ha.
Yesterday was the cremation of my 44 yr old uncle who passed from cancer this week. We grew up together and grew to be friends, not just family. So yesterday seriously sucked. I ate in between sob fests.
Today, not feeling so hot!
The kids are off school today for a PD day. This is a good thing. Not always, but today it is. They give great hugs, and, yell at you when you touch their candy bowl.
I'm not measuring anything or doing anything until Monday. New week + kids back in school = fresh start.
This loss is also a great motivator. My uncle was fit. He worked out regularly and he ate really well. Here's what I've learned through his battle;
1.There is a huge difference between organic and non-organic foods. We ate identical diets. The days consisted of many salads, lean proteins, fruits and veggies. One key take away was the need to change my families foods to organic as we consume all of the "dirty dozen" foods, as well as, hormone~probiotic~grain GMO fed meats. We were ingesting a huge amount of pesticides/poisons. There are many other factors that contribute to illness, but if I could prevent something for them, I will. Last night as I was sobbing over the candy bowl inhaling out of control volumes of tiny chocolate bars and regular Lays chips I realized, my kids aren't really eating this. There was way too many candies left for this time of year. I don't remember mine lasting long, I ate piles of it in a sitting. Hmmm, seems I haven't grown up much in that respect. My kids don't crave it like I do. They will ask for a banana with granola sprinkled on it before candy. I think I've been keeping all these goodies around for me! If I don't stop eating them my ass is going to explode into much larger jeans! I have to throw them out....
2. Get as much oxygen as you can. Exercise. Use what you were given and keep it alive.
3. Speak your mind. Share your emotions. Allow yourself to really feel all that life has to offer. When you ignore things or fail to deal with things your body will react.
I am actually really looking forward to Monday.
For now, I'm going to enjoy a date night with my hubby tonight ( I will likely inhale a days worth of calories in vino alone hee hee hee, it's our first date night in well over a year! ), a weekend of playing with my kids and cooking the weekly meals on Sunday. I bought a new food processor. We may have twenty styles of salad this week just so I can use it more!
I have lost this month. I'm down a pant size, which blew me away considering all that has happened. The boobs, nada. AnNoYiNg. The mission continues....
Be well.
Thursday, 27 October 2011
Another week bites the dust...
One of my aunts recently said something to the effect of someone admiring the role of a stay-at-home-mom and the freedom they have all day, everyday. What they didn't realize is this luxury comes in 7 minute increments. So true! You think I would have re-strategized by now. Hmmm. Food for thought ha ha ha. I've been so distracted I haven't had time to really think about anything. Writing this blog allows me that moment to focus on myself. ME time, so sacred. And it's hockey night. I have a glass of wine sitting on my computer table. The kids are all asleep. Aside from the hack coming from my son's room, it's quiet in the house. I love these moments. I have Etta James playing. Love, love, loving this moment. I could drop and do twenty...or just sit here and relish in this moment. You see what I've chosen....
SO how did this week go? One totally awesome day. Then, six totally stressful, exhausting, non-work out days. My four year old has pneumonia. My six month old is cutting her first tooth. My five year old had her first fight at school. I drank a lot of wine. My elasticized track pants don't make me feel badly about myself. Tis why I am avoiding my jeans.
I'm due for my measurements, yesterday. I will complete them and post them tomorrow.
I knew this was going to be difficult, but it can be done. I am so envious of those moms who have support networks. Mom's that come and take the kids ( my mom is special and would require a totally separate blog to discuss. Love her. We yap daily and enjoy each other. She is one of my favorite people. But anyone out there who has a disabled brother/sister knows what that does to your mom. It makes her completely ex centric and focused on one thing and one thing only. She means well, but just cannot be there the way even she wishes she could be. Mum in law works). Ahh well, life is what it is. So it all boils down to juggling what you've got and finding a way to make it work.
That's the other thing about having a disabled sibling. You learn that there is no "can't", unless you really, really can't. It's "won't" . I won't let myself down, I know I can do it. Every time I visit mum and B (my sister), I return home with a new sense of drive. If you've been given the ability to do anything, do something. You were given these abilities for a reason.....
I could go on and on, or, I can log off and finish this glass of wine on the couch with my new book. The Forgotten Garden. Any minute now anyone could wake up and end this tranquility....I must maximize on this moment.
Be well!
Cheers.
SO how did this week go? One totally awesome day. Then, six totally stressful, exhausting, non-work out days. My four year old has pneumonia. My six month old is cutting her first tooth. My five year old had her first fight at school. I drank a lot of wine. My elasticized track pants don't make me feel badly about myself. Tis why I am avoiding my jeans.
I'm due for my measurements, yesterday. I will complete them and post them tomorrow.
I knew this was going to be difficult, but it can be done. I am so envious of those moms who have support networks. Mom's that come and take the kids ( my mom is special and would require a totally separate blog to discuss. Love her. We yap daily and enjoy each other. She is one of my favorite people. But anyone out there who has a disabled brother/sister knows what that does to your mom. It makes her completely ex centric and focused on one thing and one thing only. She means well, but just cannot be there the way even she wishes she could be. Mum in law works). Ahh well, life is what it is. So it all boils down to juggling what you've got and finding a way to make it work.
That's the other thing about having a disabled sibling. You learn that there is no "can't", unless you really, really can't. It's "won't" . I won't let myself down, I know I can do it. Every time I visit mum and B (my sister), I return home with a new sense of drive. If you've been given the ability to do anything, do something. You were given these abilities for a reason.....
I could go on and on, or, I can log off and finish this glass of wine on the couch with my new book. The Forgotten Garden. Any minute now anyone could wake up and end this tranquility....I must maximize on this moment.
Be well!
Cheers.
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